A Broken Heart

Beware! This is not a fun post but it's weighing on my heart.

 Last week my aunt, my heart, my second mom was hospitalized with symptoms of liver disease. After a week long hospital visit, multiple tests, and a roller coaster of emotions we found out her liver was fine but she is in late stages of ovarian cancer. It hit us like a ton of bricks. The doctors discussed treatment options and her prognosis but in the end they told her 5 years. 5 years, really?!? After everyone left and it started sinking in her question to me was 'What do you do with that, knowing you have a time limit?' With a lump in my throat the only thing that came to mind was, you make it count. Is it a blessing or a curse to know you have a certain amount of time to live? I believe all of our time here is limited but most of us don't know what it's limited to. Is it better to go suddenly or know our expiration date?

It has me thinking about that Tim McGraw song 'Live Like You Were Dying' (Ronny by the way laughs when I tell him this. He says the concert is still fresh on my mind, lol). I would like to think I would want to know. To make sure I make every moment count. To do everything I wanted to do. Say everything I wanted to say. To be the person I wanted to be. To really LIVE the way I would want to live. 

This past week has really made me think about everything. All of a sudden it doesn't matter if my kitchen is dirty or the toys are picked up but what matters is that day I spent quality time with my kids and Ronny. I'm starting to realize the small things really are small so why am I sweating them. In the end I want to make memories with them. We are all on borrowed time and we never know when the Lord is going to call us home. All we can do is love and live with all of our heart. 

Hug your loved ones, you never know if that will be your last. Say I love you, you never know if you'll get another chance. Make each day count. My heart is broken for my aunt but I know everything happens for a reason and He is in control. I'm going to make what time I have left with her as special as I can and make as many memories as I can. I'm going to make it count!

Painting and a Few Phone Pics

This week my project was painting the kitchen. With some help from a few friends it's now complete. I finally have my red kitchen! I've wanted a red kitchen for as long as Ronny and I have been married. I'm so happy with the way the color turned out. I'm not sure I'm going to keep the vases there, I love them and so I'm stalling on taking them down but I think it is too much with them in front of the red paint. Up next, hadware for the cabinets and tiling the island then moving on to the kids bathroom. 

These are a few pictures off my phone. I love these little guys!

And after a fun filled summer day this is usually how they end up. 

They are so peaceful when they're like this :)

A Busy Start to Summer

Things have been a  little busy around here the past few weeks. I'm finally getting around to starting all my projects around the house. We have been in this house for a year and a half and I still feel like I have so much I need/want to do to the house. It is a never ending project! I started with painting the kids rooms. Now that I'm done with that I can finish getting their furniture and finish with the decor. Next, I'm going to work on their bathroom and painting the kitchen. I took a few pictures during the painting but haven't taken any after pictures. 

The kids went to a friends house to play the other day and I had 3 hours of uninterrupted time. I decided to do something for myself, something I wanted to do instead of something I had to do. So, I scrapbooked. It felt so good! It was like seeing an old friend again after a long time apart. I'm so behind on scrapbooking that I've actually skipped a few years just to make it easier to catch up and even doing that I'm just now in May of last year. I just scrapbooked Madison's birth. But, I was able to work on it and it made me realize how much I want to set aside time to continue to do something just for me. 

This weekend I was able to squeeze in two girls nights out! I'm not sure how that happened, other than I have the best husband in the world :) Friday night, a good friend called last minute and we decided to do dinner and drinks. Saturday night my sister and I went to the Tim McGraw & Kenny Chesney concert. Oh, it was fun! It was a great concert, so good I woke up Sunday with no voice, lol!

I've also tried to squeeze in some quality time with the kids by themselves. My parents watched Madison one afternoon so I could take Mason to see Madagascar and Mason hung out with Ronny one day so I could spend time with Madison. I love spending time with each of them alone. I think they like it too, Mason has already asked me when we are going to the movies again :)